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scene ii | ota | el topo
Who: Tom Zane and anyone he's talked to for more than 30 seconds
What: Tom puts his holiday boar present to use. It's drugs.
When: Anywhere from december to early january
Where: Various places around the Milton area
Warnings: Heavy use of drugs, possible coercion/manipulation to use said drugs, will update accordingly
Tom asks for more than he needs not out of gluttony, but because he feels there's a necessity for it. The world is bleak and cruel, and people here don't know anything about themselves. If Zane can help with that, why not?
There's simply no point in hoarding this sort of stuff. They're all in this together, and that means Tom is going to pitch in the best way he knows how: a little party. Different from the beautiful ones they've been having, more one-on-one, far more intimate. He does his best work like that.
There's also the fact that he just enjoys having fun on psychedelics, too. That's a very big factor. It's not all cryptic poetry and mysterious motivations on his end.
"I've decided we're going to have fun."
He brews tea out of the psychedelics, an old thermos tucked underneath his bundled up arms with each visit he makes. He's spent the better half of three or so months observing, so it's not hard to memorize the usual haunts of people he considers friends. Some he even visits in their cabins.
"I have something for you."
The problem with this big pile of snow they're on is that everyone's broken. If this fixes it, all the better. In the community hall, outside, or any area roughly around Milton Zane can be found with a thermos, eyeing people. Staring. Deciding. With a hum, he'll get up and move towards them, delight in his eyes and a soft, mischievous smirk playing on his lips.
"Hey, man. How's it going?"
He's calm and anchored, but it's not hard to tell he's going on a bender. Even without looking at his eyes, it's fairly obvious he hasn't had much sleep in the past week or so. He's content, and can be found doing all manner of things: he stands directly on a table in the community hall to frame something he cannot physically film. He wanders out into the wilderness nearly shirtless for the umpteenth time and doesn't seem to notice the cold. He dances. He has entire conversations with inanimate objects. He brings his camera with him absolutely everywhere during the entirety of this, making art despite having no film or power. Occasionally, he'll scribble poems in a fit of inspiration. It's also not uncommon to see him read the same page of a book over and over either, absolutely transfixed. Despite the gloom and the darkness, Tom Zane is having a grand old time.
whitespire or tortillasunrise on discord.]
What: Tom puts his holiday boar present to use. It's drugs.
When: Anywhere from december to early january
Where: Various places around the Milton area
Warnings: Heavy use of drugs, possible coercion/manipulation to use said drugs, will update accordingly
Tom asks for more than he needs not out of gluttony, but because he feels there's a necessity for it. The world is bleak and cruel, and people here don't know anything about themselves. If Zane can help with that, why not?
There's simply no point in hoarding this sort of stuff. They're all in this together, and that means Tom is going to pitch in the best way he knows how: a little party. Different from the beautiful ones they've been having, more one-on-one, far more intimate. He does his best work like that.
There's also the fact that he just enjoys having fun on psychedelics, too. That's a very big factor. It's not all cryptic poetry and mysterious motivations on his end.
i. Alan, Mr. Scratch, and Dr. Darling
He seeks those from home first. Each one of them gets a visit in their respective homes. Alan he wakes up by simply going to his room in the morning and standing directly over the foot of his bed, patiently waiting until he opens an eyes. Scratch at least gets a knock on his door before he barges in. Darling gets the softest touch out of all of them, Zane waiting until they're both settled in the evening before wordlessly grabbing research notes book out of the scientist's hands. The words are the same to all three:"I've decided we're going to have fun."
ii. close CR
Next, he seeks those he has a connection with. He's been solidly binging by the time this happens, and he hasn't slept much for about two days. It doesn't bother him in the least. If anything, it fuels him--this is what he's used to. This feels familiar. It's nice to stop drowning and start floating, if only for a while. Who is he not to share this gift?He brews tea out of the psychedelics, an old thermos tucked underneath his bundled up arms with each visit he makes. He's spent the better half of three or so months observing, so it's not hard to memorize the usual haunts of people he considers friends. Some he even visits in their cabins.
"I have something for you."
iii. OTA - partaking
He's been rolling for an awful long time now, but he still has a mission as well of a few doses left: he'll sidle up to anyone he deems in need of it--the sullen and the moody are definitely high on his list, but he moves to the sunnier ones, too.The problem with this big pile of snow they're on is that everyone's broken. If this fixes it, all the better. In the community hall, outside, or any area roughly around Milton Zane can be found with a thermos, eyeing people. Staring. Deciding. With a hum, he'll get up and move towards them, delight in his eyes and a soft, mischievous smirk playing on his lips.
"Hey, man. How's it going?"
iv. OTA - observing
Tom Zane is everywhere. He is on a higher level of consciousness, fully in and attuned to his emotions. He is in a state of blissful being, feeling one with the aurora and the land and all that entails. He is art. He is inspiration. He is being. He hasn't felt like pure creation since the Dark Place.He's calm and anchored, but it's not hard to tell he's going on a bender. Even without looking at his eyes, it's fairly obvious he hasn't had much sleep in the past week or so. He's content, and can be found doing all manner of things: he stands directly on a table in the community hall to frame something he cannot physically film. He wanders out into the wilderness nearly shirtless for the umpteenth time and doesn't seem to notice the cold. He dances. He has entire conversations with inanimate objects. He brings his camera with him absolutely everywhere during the entirety of this, making art despite having no film or power. Occasionally, he'll scribble poems in a fit of inspiration. It's also not uncommon to see him read the same page of a book over and over either, absolutely transfixed. Despite the gloom and the darkness, Tom Zane is having a grand old time.
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"As long as it's fun, I don't care about winning," he reasons. Gaze sharp, eyes bright, he looks around the place now that he's not half-frozen or in any particular mania. Nice digs. Comfortable, even!
"How many strings does the good Doctor have, hmmm? How much proof that you're universally liked?" There's a teasing tone to it, gentle despite the too-wide smile.
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"And it will always be fun," he tosses back quickly, making his own way a bit further back inside and crouching near the hearth to poke the logs, keep the fire going. Tom could wander around anywhere he likes, of course, and the Doctor would think nothing of it. There's a comfortable sofa, a larger cushioned chair in the corner near a stack of books; those are new — adventure books, a gift from — he smiles to himself, and there's a flicker of fondness as he thinks of them and where they came from, and continues to be coy about the strings.
Over his shoulder, "Universally liked, eh? I wonder if the universe would agree..." He muses, with no real serious thought, and flips it back to him first. "How many do you have? Loads, it must be. Enough for a cozy, multi-colored sweater?" He teases, a light in his eyes.
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"It's the complicated ones I like best. Don't you? The mess is what makes it worthwhile. It's so narratively satisfying."
He wiggles his fingers that have strings on them, brings it down to run his index finger against the spine of a few books. He picks one of them at random, and while he doesn't open it yet, he does flash the cover towards his friend.
"New?"
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"Oh, all the best are complicated," he's quick to agree. On the matter of the book, there's...something. An emotion (or two, or three...) he would never choose to so freely share. By default, everyone is important to him; those trapped here especially so. And certain others — perhaps a bit more. Therein lies the struggle. It's knowing that anything he feels for anyone at all is so plainly understood by anyone he shares a string with that niggles at him, bothers him. In true Doctor fashion, despite it being A Thing of great frustration, it's absolutely Not A Thing, why would you think that, carry on.
"Very," he says at last, nodding to the book. It's Jurassic Park. "Do you like it? Do you know, I met a few dinosaurs in my time! Oh, magnificent they were, you can imagine. I'll show you sometime." When and how? Who knows, not important.
"You need something to eat — pity I can't make my specialty, but I've got something just as good."
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He whistles at the Doctor's comment, the other's rambling rhythmic and comforting all at once, like a fun-house mirror that's inextricably more complicated. His nose wrinkles with his smile, glancing up and catching something--a wisp of emotion through the other's string, tugging him slightly towards more of that 'complicated.'
He looks up, smiling serenely.
"I'd love both," he says, closing the book and placing it very carefully back to where it was. He clears his throat.
"Why do you hide what you're feeling all the time?"
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This response, though, is slightly more delayed than some of his usual quips. He has a canned reply ready to go, the wiring's just a little slow, like it's on the fritz, like Tom asking at all has sparked a brief short circuit. So, he pauses a few seconds, a pan clatters a bit on the stove as he mumbles under his breath about toast and tea.
Finally, and with his usual ebullience as he turns to smile back at him: "Oh, I don't hide them, they're just tucked away, perfectly safe where they won't get lost or run off and I know exactly where they are! Joy's always around, of course, anger's in a shoebox in the closet, fear is a dust mite under the floorboards — you understand."
It's strange, though, what he can feel from Tom through their joined string, and what he imagines Tom can feel in return, despite his best efforts.
"'Course, sometimes I pull every feeling out all at once for a game of blind man's bluff." Another pause, and then, "How do you like your tea, Tom?"
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Tom is sitting up perfectly straight, no longer languid--the couch he'd been sitting on is less of an object to sit on and more of an object to grip, fingers digging into the top of it like if he grips it he'll float into the air.
Of course it's the Doctor, he thinks. Of course it's this man, puttering around the kitchen, levity in his heart, that fully understands him. Maybe Tom is starting to understand him the other way, too.
"Keep what you need in a shoebox, erase everything else. Tuck it away. The right person will come along and use it, use you. For good. Bring forth the light."
He smiles, wide and pleased.
"Nothing else matters. Not anything else, not your feelings, not your legacy. Just what happens. Just that one gambit. Even if yours is rage--that's really something, Doctor."
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Much to his dismay. The Doctor is absolutely the 'I'll have a little tea with my sugar' sort, generally speaking.
What he has to spare, though, will be given generously. He's selfish about bigger things, but not this. Not this sort of...little care, little attention, all the ways he can look after someone. It becomes immediately apparent that his words have a deeper meaning, perhaps even more than he'd personally realized, and when he comes back closer to Tom, seeing him grinning, the Doctor smiles softly back, tilting his head a bit, handing the mug over.
Rage conjures — oh, so much, so long, so many years far beyond this one.
"Stick with me, Tom, there's an infinite universe of wisdom like that, I promise," he says it lightly, but nothing is ever really light with him. Not now, especially. He's ever so curious about him, his words, the life he's lived, the way they understand each other, the mysteries he's still unfolding about him. Poke it with a stick, as ever. "Are we the right person? Did I open a door?"
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"You are," he says confidently. The string stirs with a lot of things--certainty at his answer, jealousy and the feeling of unfairness that have long since dulled into something barely there, dim like the Doctor's long-hidden rage he feels from their shared thread.
He inhales. Exhales for a moment, furrows his brows.
"I used to be the right man. I'm not so sure now, there's no one in the narrative to help---hey, Doctor. How do you find a purpose that fits you after you've outgrown yourself?"