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open-ish | the... sailor fight....
Who: Kate Marsh, Cornelius Hickey, Edward Little, Thomas Jopson, and basically everyone, eventually.
What: Edward Little told Kate Marsh if Cornelius Hickey ever spoke to her again, then she had to come tell him. WELL GUESS WHAT.
When: 21st February.
Where: Various, Milton.
Content Warnings: Discussions involving cannibalism and suicide, including method of suicide (wrist injuries). Major spoilers for AMC's The Terror. Also fighting.
What: Edward Little told Kate Marsh if Cornelius Hickey ever spoke to her again, then she had to come tell him. WELL GUESS WHAT.
When: 21st February.
Where: Various, Milton.
Content Warnings: Discussions involving cannibalism and suicide, including method of suicide (wrist injuries). Major spoilers for AMC's The Terror. Also fighting.
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Huh.
"Did you tell everyone that, Mr. Crozier?"
He figures it's likely the case, especially since neither Crozier nor he were even personally involved in the fight - but then again, it's possible he's getting extra warned since he's a mutineer..
"I believe it was only two of us that were fighting."
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“We’re not the only ones in Milton. It seems unfair that our chaos should spill into the other problems around town.”
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"Trust me, I want this just as little as you do." He sounds sincere enough about that. After all, it's not like he doesn't have a vested interest in keeping Hickey around and alive. This isn't really conductive to that in any sort of way. "And I have been trying to do what I can to keep such things from happening."
What I can being the keywords there. Surely Crozier realises just as well as him that Hickey isn't one to easily listen to anyone. Even when things are being said or suggested for Hickey's own good. If he had just listened to Billy about Crozier the first time around..
"But this time he was not the one starting it."
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"It's a residual fight," he reminds him. "His presence was going to rankle anyone who was on the opposite side of the mutiny. However I wouldn't like to see this continued."
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".. I will do what I can to make sure he doesn't get any plans about revenge or a second round." An easy enough thing to promise, mostly because he doesn't want to think about what could happen to Hickey in the end if this would only escalate. There is no way it would end well. "Though I hope that means you will do the same with Mr. Jopson."
Billy is not the only one with a certain influence and he knows it.
"I know none of you would mind if the town was rid of Mr. Hickey, after all." He doesn't think Crozier is lying about not wanting more fights, but this fact does make it a little harder to fully trust the other so easily.
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"I'm certain Hickey feels the same about us," he replies easily. "He chained me to a gig and tried to feed me to the creature, after all. I doubt he's pleased I'm showing my face now. But you have my word, whatever it's worth to you, that I'll use my voice to calm rather than stir the rage."
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"He chained--"
His expression starts going through a mess of complicated emotions right after, in fact, before it ends up at something that mostly seems to look exasperated.
This makes so many puzzle pieces suddenly fall right into place.
"When he said he brought you into camp, I assumed that was just part of his obsession with you." It made perfect sense to Billy in that context. It had been clear to him long ago just how badly Hickey wanted to get close to Crozier. He isn't even ratting anything out about Hickey, because it's that obvious. "I did not imagine it was because he wanted to attempt to control that creature."
Which, for the record, sounds like just as bad of an idea to him. An even worse one, in fact! The worst part is that Billy needs so very little information to realise that's what Hickey was trying to do, because he knows the guy too well. Cornelius, why do you have to be like this.
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"Ah," he nods. "He wanted me there to witness his glorious ascension into godhood."
But poor Billy Gibson, he seems almost...fondly exasperated? How deeply would it hurt him if he knew the truth of what happened to Hickey? He doesn't want to know, doesn't want to find that out.
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There's another thing he can piece together, though.
It proves Crozier's own thoughts right, because something falls about the other man's expression. It's the sort of vulnerability Billy doesn't like showing in front of other people, but something about the thought of this instinctively brings it into his expression, in the sort of way he can't hide or shove down.
"... And then he died, didn't he."
He doesn't buy into Hickey's delusional ideas, after all. He knows there is only one inevitable outcome of an encounter with that creature, especially for anyone foolish enough to think they can control it.
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No, that isn't true. He won't gloat about a man's death, even if it was a man who did despicable, horrifying things in the name of 'survival'.
"Yes," he answers, "he died. The creature wasn't receptive."
It's the kindest way that he can describe that failure.
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The talk of this, and the quiet on Billy's end-- they make him think of something else after a moment. Something he isn't sure whether to bring up at first. Crozier is being more reasonable than Billy expected him to be about all of this, but he doesn't know if he can actually trust the other man. He's inclined to lean towards not - if not just out of instinct. There's a reason he didn't talk with anyone about his obviously failing health, after all. Why would the lieutenants care? What could the doctors do? Suggesting the mutiny had felt like the only possible step, because Billy knows that no one is going to look after you. If you want something done, you have to do it yourself.
In this case, however, he realises that all of this is far out of his hands. Even more so in the light of what Crozier is telling him here. Billy can't do this alone. It would be doomed to fail. But reaching out, confiding in someone-- it's terrifying, and he can feel the emotion rising within himself in that typical way it always does lately. Hot, burning, like flames licking away at him on the inside, threatening to spill out. His hands feel impossibly warm inside of his gloves.
"Mr. Crozier."
It's reflected in his tone. It sounds like it's hard for him to even speak, but he does it anyway, pushing himself onwards.
"I.. fear there is a chance of history repeating itself. I spoke with him after that ominous dream the other month. The one with that-- that terrible being in it." Because he had woken up from it in bed with Hickey, but there are some parts of this Crozier definitely does not need to know. "His reaction to it was odd. Mr. Hickey seems to think we are here because we are special. It.. could be that he might try to also reach out to whatever forces we are dealing with here."
He's well aware their interests aren't necessarily directly aligned here. He doesn't believe Crozier cares one bit whether or not Hickey gets killed by something way above human understanding all over again. But there's an angle to approach this from now that might make cooperation on this a little easier.
(It's not manipulation. It's not even Billy feeling smart. If anything, something about him seems a little desperate as he speaks. He just wants to hold on to whatever happiness he finally managed to find here.)
"You have seen how many people he is willing to drag along in those plans. It would be better if we could prevent it."
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But they are on the same side of this. Gibson wants to survive, and a chaotic life filled with violence decreases that chance significantly. Hickey, the man who calls himself Hickey, will gladly draw them all back into maw of the monster just as he did before if it meant something to him. Hickey thinks himself cleverer than most, more worthy and more valuable than the life he'd been given; he'll do anything to have that better life.
"Does he know that he dies?"
He looks up at Gibson and waits.
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It's not like Billy hasn't calculated in the chance that Hickey could be keeping that information from him, but.. considering the way the other has spoken of future events, and even also claimed that Crozier knew more than him, it leaves Billy pretty certain that the other man does not know of his own end.
Thinking about that enough also makes another thought come to mind.
"I'm not sure if knowing that would stop him." It sounds almost ridiculous, but.. then again, living in this place almost makes the ridiculous normal. "He would likely just convince himself that this time will surely be different."
It wouldn't be the first time he saw that man continuing to chase after something that he had been told was hopeless, after all.
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"He misunderstood," he tells him. "He misunderstood the situation entirely, just as he will here if he thinks he can tame whatever this is."
But he wonders the depth of Gibson's devotion. Would an obsession with yet another mystical beast hurt him as bad as the first time Hickey destroyed him? Or would it somehow be worse a second time?
"I don't know how to calm that obsession. Do you?"
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It's just the sort of person Hickey is. Like an unstoppable force. It makes Crozier's own admittance that he doesn't know what to do about it either very unsurprising. Even if some people they know might think Crozier is some sort of superhuman who can do anything, Billy is far more realistic in his assessment.
Still, it can't hurt for at least someone else here to know of this too, so he at least isn't carrying that knowledge by himself. And if Crozier is going to step up at least a little bit again, he's the best candidate for it.
"So far it does not seem too bad." Yet, anyway. He frowns, thinking about it. "But.. I must admit I did not see the signs of it before either. Back during the expedition. I feel that if he had already been thinking about the creature that much back then, he would have confided about it in me."
They had discussed so much, after all. They planned an entire mutiny, without even a real mention of the creature itself in that particular sense along the way.
"It is possible something.. accelerated his interest in it after I passed, though I am obviously not certain what that could have been. As long as that threshold is not crossed here, perhaps there's a chance."
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He also doesn't think Hickey cared much about the creature until some later point in time, when he learned that it wasn't an animal but much, much more. He must have put pieces together: Silna and the failed ritual, the intelligence of the creature, it's deep intelligence and penchant for wrath.
He wants to agree with Gibson, that there's still hope Hickey may not need to seek the approval of what he doesn't understand. If he doesn't find desperation here or see importance laid at his feet where there is none, perhaps there'd be one less enemy lurking in Milton.
"He saw gain to be had in the creature. If he'd given what he needs, perhaps there'd be no need to covet."
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"What gain was that, Mr. Crozier? Power?" If the man maybe imagined that he could somehow control the creature, turn its destruction into something Hickey himself could aim at whatever he wanted..
The idea seems so farfetched to Billy, who's much more grounded in reality, but he can't imagine anything other gain to be had there.
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"Power," he says, shoulders rising in a soft shrug. "He saw a chance to touch the divine. Whereas most of us would be terrified, he's..."
Ah, what's the word. Stupidly fascinated? No, that's perhaps too harsh. After all, weren't they all fascinated by the creature in some manner?
"Inspired. I think he was inspired."
But it's still a troublesome line of thinking, one that could pull them all right back into the maw of a beast.
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But he has seen the signs on Hickey. He knows what the man is like. It's certainly a new level of delusion entirely, but if Billy stretches the things he has witnessed in his mind, it's not impossible when it's Hickey.
(It's still stupid, though, and he certainly feels the exasperation that always sits right alongside the affection.)
"Then there is nothing any of us can do," he concludes. Some of the exasperation slips out into his tone, though it doesn't seem aimed at Crozier, since there are no barbs in it. "Unless you happen to be capable of somehow giving him divine inspiration."
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He knows that exasperation, but it's difficult to put his finger on exactly where he's seen it. Perhaps on his own friend, James Clark Ross - he'd certainly had that look on his face when Crozier would open up his mouth and put his foot right into it. But then again he'd also seen the look on his older sisters, on Thomas Blanky's when his old friend made some idiotic captaining decisions, and Sophia whenever he said something too overtly romantic.
There's fondness there, a genuine fondness. Gibson would quite genuinely be upset if Hickey somehow hurt himself or others with his idiotic ideas.
"I'm no Sir John," he replies dryly. It'd be nice if he could inspire divine inspiration in a person, but then the mutiny wouldn't have happened in the first place. "But I'll do as I must to prevent further descent into delusions of grandeur."
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"Thank you." There's nothing deeply emotional about the words, but there's an honesty to them.
After all, he isn't delusional enough to think Crozier is doing this for him, let alone for Hickey. But intentions don't matter when they're working for the same outcome here - and he knows he'll need all the help he can get with this. So having anyone else at all that realises this is the true risk and is willing to help work to avoid it is something he is genuinely grateful for.
"I will do what I can on my end as well." There's a pause, followed up by a slight nod. "... Then I will take my leave, unless you had more to ask."
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There's nothing more. He'd never paid much mind to Gibson, let alone gotten to know him on any personal level, but that doesn't mean he hadn't wished him well or looked to harm him in any way.
Perhaps he might still make a different choice when push comes to shove. It's the longest shot in the world, but it's always a possibility. He has to believe that.
He returns the nod and leaves the conversation at that.